A man named Amir lived in the bustling town of Bharatpur, near Santichowk. He was known for his resilience despite his chronic poverty. Amir had grown up on a farm in Chitwan with his father, where they always had little money and sometimes not enough food to eat. Despite this hardship, his father loved him and harboured dreams of a better future for him. Amir aspired for more than a life as a farmer and dreamed of working hard, going to Dubai, and making some real money. However, the problem was that getting there and settling down would cost the money that he needed. Seeing his son’s ambition, his father took a drastic step to gather the required money.

His father approached a loan shark to borrow the money to send Amir to Dubai. The loan shark was intimidating and demanded that all the money be returned with interest within six months, or there would be severe consequences. The poor farmer agreed, believing Amir could earn money once he started working in Dubai. However, the borrowed money was only enough to send Amir alone, leaving his wife behind until he made enough to bring her to him.

Amir was thrilled at the opportunity to leave Nepal and go somewhere other than his poor family farm. The city shocked him, but he was determined to earn money to send to his wife and repay the loan shark to make his father proud and live his dream. It only took a few weeks to find a job, and while the pay was small, he believed it would be enough if he spent it wisely.

In the desert city, Amir took up a menial job, barely earning enough to make ends meet, let alone send money back home or pay off the loan shark. He was disheartened when he got his first paycheck and realised how little he would have been left with after paying his bills and sending money back. He yearned for a good life and understood that he would never attain it at this rate. In his mind, he remembered the arguments with his father about wanting to earn more money and lead a comfortable life, only to be reminded that there was no shortcut to success and that hard work was necessary.

One day, Amir saw a lottery ticket on sale in a store window. The grand prize was advertised in a huge flashing sign. It was an amount that would allow him to live a comfortable life without having to work ever again. He could pay back the loan shark and send all the money his wife would need. The solution he had been looking for was staring him right in the face.

He knew that just one ticket wouldn't be enough, so he took all the money aside for his family and spent it on lottery tickets. He only sent back a small amount to his wife with a letter explaining that they would never need to worry about money again soon. His wife lived a lonely life. Despite their dire circumstances, she cherished the small amount of money her husband managed to send back home every month. He sent a letter to his father explaining where the money went and assuring him that if the loan sharks could be a little more patient, they would get double the money they lent. He wrote in the letter, “If only I could win the lottery, Buwa. Just once. Life wouldn't be so hard.”

The lottery came and went, with Amir not winning a single penny but losing all his money. When he got paid again and saw an even bigger jackpot, he couldn't help himself. He believed he would be lucky and blessed enough to win that week. He sent similar letters and even less money back to his family, assuring them that this time he would win, and they would be rich and never need to worry again.

He received a reply from his father, a wise and pragmatic man. Instead of excitement, as he had anticipated, he was met with anger. His father scolded him for thinking he could win the lottery and not sending back the promised money. His father wrote, “Babu, Amir, lotteries are illusions for people like us. We become even poorer, spending what little we have, hoping for a miracle. Remember, change isn't brought by luck but by sweat and effort.” He reminded Amir to work hard and stop finding an easy way out. Ignoring his father’s warnings, Amir dreamt of a big house, a new car, and a comfortable life. Amir crumpled up the letter, threw it in the trash, and decided that his father was wrong and didn't understand.

That week, the lottery came and went, and Amir won nothing. He couldn't stop himself and kept spending money on the lottery, convinced that it would all be worth it as soon as he won. He hoped a ticket would bring him a fortune, but he only won a few dollars. Six months passed when he finally received word that his father had passed away and that he needed to return to Nepal.

When Amir arrived, he found that his family farm was gone, and he didn't understand what had happened. He went to his wife for an explanation, only to discover that she had left him for another man. He was furious, but she explained that he had never fulfilled his role by sending her enough money to survive or coming to get her after a few months as he had promised. He asked what had happened to his father, and she told him the story.

After months of not receiving any money, the loan shark destroyed the farm and took it over. He sold the land to get his money back, and Amir's father was left with nothing, not even a place to live. He stayed with Amir's wife, but he became very depressed and soon fell sick and died. Clearly, she blamed Amir for this, and he realised he had made a terrible mistake.

He was so focused on thinking he would win the lottery that he didn’t consider the money being squandered. Money that could have saved his farm or brought his wife back to him. Now, he was left with nothing. The family farm was gone, his father had passed away, and his wife had left him for another man. He was poor, and the only thing the lottery had done was make him even poorer instead of rich as he had imagined.

Kalwar is a writer from Chitwan.